I feel a strong need to write, even that there is something important that I need to write down, but I don’t know what it is!

One of the pieces is the now clear awareness that I am no longer in the place of deep belly sobbing that I was in, and that more than a few are still there now.

I was there then because of my broken bones…
And knowing that I’ve lost contact with that place is important. Because I see how very differently the world looks when one is looking from that place!!
[As it is also “different” when one looks on from one of those psalms…]

I’ve not let go of what for me is still in a way a failed attempt to get the scholars to address my questions from Oct.. And that I didn’t send them the questions again, was a big error. Again, I still don’t know what to do about that either. Just let it go,…as though it’s not a problem? I wrote to them from my deep belly place …and no one noticed? (Sounds like the horses in the NYT article of today.)

The good thing is that I feel no desperation about any of it…

Not Today… I feel “even” hopeful at the moment. At the moment. Yesterday was another story…. Realizing who 47 is appointing and how much damage it MAY cause. Perhaps I did that yesterday…and amazingly, my decision to cook fabulous food instead of watching the news as someone suggested on FB,,,turned my attention away from it and towards our beautiful Shabbat table with luscious Manchego Souffle and a salad of baby greens, pears and bay shrimp. (Clearly not kosher)

The lack of resolution with X…leaves a huge question hanging in my life.

What do we do, how do we not misuse our knowledge, education, advantages. Etc.? Is it possible to have such things and for their impact in our lives not to divide us from those who do not have them?

The Horse article…. It’s the reason why the horse bolted that needs attention, not the bolting. It’s the reasons why people voted for 47 that we need to pay attention to . Thus D Brooks’ book… on how know others deeply. We don’t know each other on “our side” at St A’s…enough to have even something of an idea as to why they voted as they did. Let alone… those who voted for 47.

Why or how is it that we know each other so little?